Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Falling Day

Today has been mad crazy all the way from the start.

Before leaving for work this morning (before getting dressed to go to work actually), husband was hanging things in the closet when the closet suddenly decided to collapse.  I might be a mean wife for saying this is karma for unresolved issues with another friend, but I almost feel this to be true.  Problem being I feel like his bad karma is all wearing off on me due to my empathy, but ugh, I don't want it!

Went to work today and not only were we short people, the project I manage showed up almost 4 hours late.  I worked late, my boss even stayed and we just scrambled as best we could to get it done.  Our warehouse guy managed to stall our fedex man just long enough for us to completely finish everything up so we won't be working on it tomorrow morning.  I still have work to complete for this job tomorrow morning, but it can wait until morning so that's beside the point.  So long story short work sucked!

In reading today I finished up volume 2 of Ai Ore!.  Still can't really describe my feelings for it.  I like it more than "meh", but I can't say it's a series I'm in love with.  I do really hope to see the Japanese live-action movie they made from it though.

So came home late from work.  Ate leftover pasta and ham from previous nights dinners.  Left the house and went to Home Depot to buy a new shelf and hanging rod for the closet.  Husband will put it up while Mum is out at work tomorrow.  We're having all the secret hopes that she just won't ever find out that it fell and broke and we will not put as much on the top shelf going forward.  We ended up staying out later than I would really have preferred because the husband was having this whole "OMG OUT OF THE HOUSE" evening.  Honestly I don't understand at all because I've always been such a hermit.  

Came home, took my shower.  Got things out of the dresser, then closed the drawer and FALLING AGAIN!  Not the closet this time.  Stuff jostled a a pill bottle knocked a doll head off the dresser.  This is a comission I've been working on.  The head's face-up was all finished, but I've still been doing work on the body.   The fall scuffed up the cheek blushing so now I will need to fix that before he can be sent out.  I really need to get him finished up because my time has been all slim and all the crazy things have been going on, but she's been waiting almost 2 months.  I'm thinking I'm not allowing myself to go to the doll meet Saturday until I have done the work on this doll to finish him. 

I've loved all this social activity lately.  I know the husband has been becuase it means either being out of the house or being in the house with friends, but I can't get anything done!   Going to push to stay up however long it takes for me to finish this Chapter 1 of the manga I'm currently working on.  That is tonight's plan and hopefully I won't be paying for it too much in the morning.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Fun But Frustrating Weekend

This weekend there was a lot going on.  Little real rest happened, but much fun was had.  We had a game night with friends on Saturday that lasted into the wee hours of Sunday morning.  I actually ended up playing only one game myself, but that's not unusual for me.  My husband is a very big gaming person, I am not. 

I actually ended up facing up a doll the rest of the evening.  My friend Jasmine had been waiting for another friend to do it who flaked on her a few times over the course of about three weeks and she was getting frustrated so since we were at my house and all my stuff to do it was at my disposal I offered and then did it.  She turned out very cute.  I must remember when I get my pictures off my camera to post it.   She's a SOOM Thera and is the twin to my SOOM Goss.  They are adorable together and now becuase I still haven't really decided what to do with my boy really and I wanted them to match better, she sold me back the pair of horns she had bought from my split since she bought the Thera horns along with the doll from our friend Kathy, who was the original owner.

Sunday was also fun.  We all headed out to the Galleria to take my brother-in-law Rory & sister-in-law Faythe to the American Girl store.  Jasmine & her husband Jim joined us as well.  Jasmine is working so hard on the enabling front, she brought me one of her AGs to carry around the store.  It was a little amusing, but fun.   Afterwards we went back to our place where we hung out and had dinner. 

Husband has been holding onto aggession about something that I feel like is silly that's been annoying him.  I keep trying to work with him over and over again that he just needs to speak up and nip things in the bud when they start to bother them, not after multiple occassions after weeks and then he blows up all crazy about it.  Sadly it concerns one of my best friends, and then even today my mom tried to start something and all I could think was "damn I thought she liked her alright except for the some of the cursing."  I simply said we're not talking about her and after about three things she said and getting no response she just dropped it.  I'm sorry mom that you think my friend is loud and bossy, but that's not very respectful to me to bring that up.  Unless you want me to just not have her over you should have nothing to say.  She could have simply said "I don't mind you having get togethers, but you all got a little loud, but I was just too nice to say anything so maybe in the future could you guys watch your volume." 

I ended up rather bogged down at work today, so that just further added to my annoyance.  As you might can tell I did wake up in a rather foul mood this morning.   Read a couple more chapters of Ai Ore volume 2 today.  I'm not super in love with the series, but I do like it.   Want to see where it goes to.  It is a bit more mature of a series than I expected it to be.  So that about sums things up for now.  I do need to kip off and try and get some manga work done before bed.  I have a very quick approaching deadline and still very booked weekends to come.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Need to keep up better

Still trying to remind myself to do this blogging thing.  In all honesty if I'd just found the time in the last month or so I would possibly be a little more calm about things than I am.

My last posted spoke of my father in less than well condition in the hospital.  He passed away December 15th.  My brother whom works over seas and his family came in and stayed with us across the course of about two weeks.  It was really wonderful getting to see my youngest niece.  She was 15mo old (16mo now) and almost walking.  We think she will remember who we are now on future skype calls.  Brother and wife kept their fighting/bickering to a minimum and their stay was far more pleasant than the last.  These were of course very different circumstances.   His service was lovely and packed the house to the point of standing room.  The preist was my brother's child hood friend who was the third son and my third brother for many years.  He grew up without a father so mine was a very special person in his life.  It was good getting to see and visit with him as he grew up and faded off from our lives.  My father's best friend of many years spoke as did one of my younger cousins who thought the world of my dad. 

Christmas was not as hard as I thought it would be, but he was still missed greatly.  I started my Christmas shopping early this year and everyone's presents went over quite well.  The nieces and nephews made out like bandits and love their presents.  

Sadly this was the last Christmas we were able to spend with my husband's father.  Christmas came and new years passed.  He began fading faster than any of us could have imagined.  He celebrated his first anniversary with his dear second wife Monday the 14th, not much celebration due to his physical state, and around 1:30am on January 15th he passed away.  Mom called all the boys a little before midnight and all of us came.  He was surround by his loving wife & his three sons and their wives.  The boys all shared stories and we asked him to say hello to loved ones and good friends (and especially to his hero John Wayne).

His service was yesterday and the church was packed.  We've gotten to spend the last few days with all of his siblings (our aunts and uncles).  It has been very good to see them and get to spend the time with them that we have. 

Step-brother-in-law was able to get his tickets moved forward to come and be her for his mother and to be here for the memorial service.  We've also gotten to spend some time together, which has been great, and I feel like we've all bonded a little more as well. 

Most out of anyone, one of the uncles has been staying here with us at Mom's place.  He drives a truck and drove in last week.  We have enjoyed every moment of having him.  Husband thinks the absolute world of him and this is the first time they've ever gotten to spend this much time together.  We've played board games, watched movies and just had some great times.  I really really look forward to having my own place so hopefully we can offer a guest room to him in the future when he rolls through like this again.

We're all doing fine, but I want to be done with all of this death business. 

In between all this I dnd end up getting some doll commissions done.  People send me dolls/heads the first week of December so I ended up taking longer on everything than normal but the owners definitely understood.

Fairyland Minifee Scar Shiwoo
 

Luts Minifee Elf Shiwoo

These two commissions were done for Den of Angels user DeadLegato.  I still have another comission that's not quite complete.  Finished the face-up, but am in the middle of working on a scar on the body.  Will post it when completed.

I'm still off from work tomorrow and will probably be spending the day doing just whatever with a combo of family and friends.  Husband is cooking a divine smelling dinner right now!  Looking very forward to it.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Everything's Gone South In A Handbasket

There are those moments when something goes wrong and you think nothing could possibly get worse.  Well everything continues to happen and keeps getting worse.

Let us start last Friday.  I came home from work to the news that my husband had been layed off from his job.  Well that sucks, but at least he's got a severnce package until mid January. 

Saturday we go ahead and have our scheduled Christmas/Yule grilling party with our friends because whilst we were a tad bit depressed we'd been planning it for weeks and it was great to see all our friends.  We did have quite a smashing good time.  Bad news on that night was that it's official, a store run by some friends of mine is closing up as it's not being profitable enough.  Always just sad news.

Sunday I don't remember much about to be completely honest.  I know I read a bit of a book, worked a bit on my DMG manga project (which has a next week deadline OMG).  I believe we did some shopping and then we had a really nice big family dinner my dad cooked.  It has been so long since he cooked stead and gravy (everyone's classic favorite meal).  Bad news of Sunday was letting my friend Kelly know that Logan was layed off and apparently her husband found out Friday his division he work for is being sold off so he may be out of a job soon as well.

Monday I was off work and enjoyed my day off.  Did a little DMG work in the morning then went to go get my friend Jasmine and we went up to Denton to visit with Kelly for a bit then we headed on up to Baubles & Frills, our friends shop that's closing.  Bought a few things, mainly a wig for my newest doll.  I ended up picking up a dollzone Lankui from Denver Doll when they posted them for sale.  I swear something stink about Monday but I just don't remember.  I just have to say I seriously regret so harshly being gone so much of Monday.   Came home stayed up till about 1 or 2am working on manga.

Was awoken Tuesday morning to my mother beating on the bedroom door asking my husband to go wait outside for the ambulence.  She woke up to find my dad sitting on the floor yelling at her but not speaking clearly.  Paramedics picked him up (it was quite a task as my father is a rather large guy, and really hard to watch) and took him to the hospital downtown.  We all rushed on over afterwards.  I called my brother (the local one) and we all met down at the hospital.  Spent pretty much the whole day there.  Came home for a few hours to get things for my mom so she could stay the night.  My dad suffered a stroke.  He is paralyzed on his right side and cannot clearly speak.

Went to work Wednesday and find out a coworker (mind you I didn't know her very well) passed away over the weekend.  I worked my day, told my tale becuase people can tell quite obviously with me when I'm not okay.  Went to see Dad later that night.  They had moved him to his own room and set him up as best they can.  On the way back home my husband informs me of the news he received from his father.  The cancer is kicking his butt and the chemo they had him on has done more harm than good.  At current he has 30-90 days.... 

Work has been a nightmare all week by the way.  Thursday was a day of no bad news.  I worked, then went to the hospital again and Daddy was looking a bit better.  Was able to move his right foot around a little and all the hopes and optimism were looking good.  When he was in ER Tuesday they did a CT scan which turned up clean, and then Thursday they'd done some sonogram tests which turned up clean.  All we could think is that this is great news, but something caused it so they set up an angiogram for Friday.

Worked today, finally getting a little caught up on things.  Came home to an amazing dinner cooked by my husband.  Went to see dad and the angiogram found the problem.  His left carotid artery is blocked.  My mom told the news of the results pretty calmly and went about as usual this evening.  We had brought her more stuff and brought her some bills that she needed to write checks for and everything.  My cousin Jo was there and had been visiting most of the day.  We arrived in time to chat with her for a bit and then she was headed off to stay with another local cousin.  Since the hospital is downtown and not the greatest part of town mom made Logan walk Jo to her car.  During this time Daddy was really active and trying to tell us things and in turn getting really upset when we were having trouble figuring it out.  He saw mom doing the bills and thought he forgot to pay something that would be late.  Then he was trying to tell us something else and we figured out the location but still couldn't figure out what it was.  So after staying a while me and Logan left.  After we left he told me what Jo had told him.  We both know from Logan's mother's stroke and passing how serious that clogged carotid artery is.  Basically as it stands there are only two things they could possibly do to solve this problem, both very high risk for my fathers condition (including age and other health factors).  She stated what I also feel to be true that my mother is in denial about the situation and still keeps insisting we're going to do everything possible to get him through this so he can eventually get around himself and come home.  As things stand while surgery is an option, it's a risky one and in the end we might have to find a care facility for him where he will spend the rest of what time he has left with us.  The reason he's paralyzed on the right side is becuase the lack of blood flow to the left side of the brain.  The right side is trying very hard to compensate, but that can only work for so long.  When we got home the only bill we could find that might be late is one that had a zero balance.  In the place he was specifying there was a box.  At one point we thought he was saying something about forgetting a Christmas present and it had something to do with me.  What he was telling us was basically "Mom don't forget Melanie's Christmas present.  It's on my desk up on the top next to the clock" and that it was okay for me to go find it.  So we called mom when we found the box and she verified that the box was my christmas present.  I'm feel really horrible that that's something he was worrying about.  Mom asked me to bring it with me tomorrow.  It's this horribly fun looking blue Chinese dragon.  Dear lord I will keep and cherish it forever now.    I even think I found the name for my new doll with everything going on now.  Jesse, my dad's middle name.

I have broken down and bawled so many tears tonight, trying to get out as much as possible so when I see him I don't have any and can just stand there and hold his hand and tell him I love him.  We've had so many tiffs over the years and he's whined at me that I don't come over often enough, but he's one of the best dads ever.

The universe has a cruel sense of humor.  People always talk about being in the right place at the right time.  I can only think that this whole slew of events that placed us living with my parents since last June all happened the way it did leading up to everything that's happened this week.  I'm really hoping I don't go away from 2012 hating Christmas.

Up until 3am baking cookies for a Christmas party with friends tomorrow.  Chances are high I will break down and bawl my eyes out at any given point.  I just really want to see my friends right now and try to do something cheerful. 

Monday, November 26, 2012

Wishing the Sick Away!

Been icky all weekend, but now am completely full blown sick.  Woke up this morning feeling a little better than yesterday then started coughing and thought maybe I should call in to work today, take another to relax and get better since everyone death glares you if you walk into the office with a cough. 

Did fine for a few hours then started getting chills and a headache.  So now have been running a fever for a few hours.  Husband was off work today getting in his end of year vacation days and has been taking care of me.  As well he should be since I'm 99% sure I got this from him in the first place.  He's had the ick, but not gotten this bad (which is normal for him).    He's been the best though.  Keeps checking in on me and made me lunch.  Ramen & pot stickers.  I tell you what though, saltine crackers are the best by far. 

So totally sick and doing the right thing.  Resting, eating saltine crackers and drinking water.  I did before the fever hit get some work done editing a podcast I'm working on with friends.  I do still really hope to finish that up before the end of the day.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

This whole Thanksgiving thing.

I think last week I was one of the very few people in my building at work that wasn't off at least one day other than Thanksgiving proper (everyone got that off).  I spent my whole work week covering for people who were out and we were aweful busy. 

Thanksgiving itself was great.  Spent time with my husband's family.  The whole family because Mama Lynn's whole bunch came over as well.  Was happy I was able to help Faythe through some panic attack issues.  We spent a lot of time talking.  My social anxiety issues have never run nearly as deep as hers, but having had them I have a lot of understanding.  My niece Ella and I talked more American Girl talk.  She's going to spaz when Christmas comes.   Sad to hear it seems they haven't been able to find/haven't un-packed any of their books since they moved this past summer.  She was talking about wanting to read them again.  Food was good, company was great, and best of all no drama (at least none that I know of or heard). 

Woke up Saturday morning and seem to have caught the ick that's traveling around.  My mom and Logan have had it most of the week, though it seems I pushed past and nipped the chest congestion in the bud and it's all moved into my nose/head.  Got medicine put in me Saturday and went up to Paris to see Dad's extended family for more Thanksgiving.  More than half the bunch (almost 50 of us) had the ick.  Good to see everyone, even if I'm not very social with any of them.  And as usual always great to see my grandmother. 

Today, as I said, the ick moved all to my nose/head.  Glad not to be caughing, but my head has been baloon like most of the day.  Went out for lunch for pho, then did a little more Christmas shopping.  After packages arrive by the end of this week I will have the rest of my overseas gifts and will hopefully ship them out next weekend.  Had to do my mom's shopping for Pimmy because she wasn't going to send her anything because the shipping is so expensive to Thailand, and I'm all like "Who cares!".  I would have sent her something last year except right before Christmas was when all that terrible flooding happened and so she wasn't in a place I could really send anything since everyone was evacuated from their homes.  I let her birthday slip up on me last year too.  I really have loved having conversations with my sister in law how she thinks Pimmy would love me becuase we seem to have a lot in common (tom boyish girls who like nice dolls).  She wanted a blythe, but she's going to have to settle for a Dal.  I'm thinking if she thought she liked Blythes, that she's going to really love Pullip dolls.  Since I shopped for my mom she's getting one of the Littlest Petshop Loves Blythe sets that comes with a couple pets and a couple changes of clothes for the little Blythe doll.

Other than some Christmas shopping online and off today, I've been sitting around trying to get better, watching Kpop and working on my assignments for DMG.  I think I'm cutting it a little close on one of my DMG deadlines, but the time has just been terrible for me.  I didn't know when I took my current assignments I'd be moving and all the other mess that's gone on.  Anyways not much else to go on about.  Need to get back to DMG work, so off I go!

Well I did go away a moment then I remembered other things... I got the newest member of my doll family this past week.  My SOOM Goss, his name is Torrance (Tori for short).  I also was super thrilled on Black Friday.  The only place I shopped was the US H.naoto web store in which I picked up a couple new tops, a pair of socks and some earrings.  I was soooo stupidly thrilled to get a shirt I've been eyeballing for almost half off.  I look forward to getting it becuase it's just so pretty....  Okay, that that was really all my other exciting news.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Long long weekends...

It's been quite a while since I've really updated and a lot has gone on.   Due to circumstances I don't really want to talk about, 90% of my things are in a storage unit and the husband and I are currently STILL living with my parents instead of moving back in our friends house.  We are currently now seeking a 3 bedroom place.  Aiming more toward a condo or townhome, though a house is not completely out of the question.

Had some good doll things that have been keeping me rolling pretty strong and have helped out with stress.  I recently received my Asleep Eidolon Yao who is named Derisa.  I really love him and can't wait until I find the time to get a face-up on him.  The reason he doesn't have one already is that I've been working on a commisson on a Volks Kohya head, sadly just a little bit at a time between getting everything packed and moved and all the crazy stressed out and fatigued days.  I still technically have to put a face on Kataega, our Migidoll Miho vampire, before I can get to Derisa.  Finished the Kohya head today but next up is a Hujoo Wings commission.  So much work to get done, but I'm really happy that the official move actually is done and now the house hunting can commence and honestly I feel like I'm finally gonna have a little extra time.

Though I do also still have to get caught up on my work for Digital Manga Guild.  I don't think I'm completely behind, I just wanted to have more done by now.  Deadline for first book is up in about a month so I think so long as I get more diligent about it I won't be too bad off.

I'm having a good day just de-stressing even if it's meant we spent a bit more money than we really needed to eating out this weekend.  We had our sushi dinner at Sapporo we wanted Friday night, had QT corn dogs for breakfast Saturday, then we fed our whole moving crew decent cheap Chinese food, then went out with another friend to Chili's later that night.  We actually did breakfast at home this morning, then hit a Carl's Jr for lunch, then our fave pho place on the way back from seeing a friend this afternoon for dinner.  Then we went to target and shopped... We ended up with far more than what we went in for, but many of them are useful.

Got home just in time to catch Walking Dead.  Tonight's ep was gorier than most others.  Last week's ep was sooo freakishly emotional I just didn't know what was going to happen this week, but as usual they leave us hanging.  Only show I watch and follow at actuate air times these days and I really do enjoy it even if it mildly creeps me out and I have to find a few things to watch or read to "buffer" between the show before going to bed.

Speaking of reading, went on a hunt to a few B&Ns today in search of Bakuman vol 16 without any luck.  Know it came out this past week, but couldn't find it.  However got and devoured Blue Exorcist vol 8 that showed up from Amazon Saturday.  

On notes of shipping I'm waiting for 2 doll orders right now, one from Dollmore which has been stuck in customs in Chicago since last Sunday & another from SOOM that arrived to the same customs office yesterday.  Now I'm just waiting to see which of them actually gets released first.  I've never had customs hold onto anything for so long as long as it has been with this dollmore order.  Me and everyone else on the order would really like our stuff. 

Anyways, I suppose that's about enough rambling for tonight.  I'll seriously try to keep better updated in the future, but meh, this always seems to happen with me and blogs.  Off to read another chapter of The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms then go to bed.  Tomorrow is Veteran's day which means my job will be a bit light because it is a postal holiday and most of my projects are mail that comes in from the usps.  However there's another project that we will get that comes in through fedex and they don't stop operations for it so yay?  Wish me luck, Tuesday will definitely be hell-ish.